Somewhere Over the Rainbow

21 Mar

Hi all,

Sorry for being a bit rando and sporadic as of late. Here’s the update.

Last Wednesday night I left work and was heading home to pack for SXSW for work when my phone started going off with phone calls and texts. My family was calling to let me know my grandma was not doing well and we didn’t know if she would make it through the night. I spent an hour sitting on my steps crying – sad and unsure of what to do; drive north to be with my family or pack for my work trip and get on a plane in the morning. It was a very difficult position to be in, but after loosing my Grandma and Aunt  suddenly last October while I was traveling in Europe, I was scared to be away from the family. We also lost Phil’s grandpa in December, so the family is very vulnerable and still healing from all of our loss.

Phil and I threw clothes in a bag and drove like bats out of hell four hours north to my hometown. We went straight to the hospital where I stayed for days on end. My sister and her family arrived the next day and we spent the next five days siting by grandma’s bed, holding her hand, talking, and just being together.

We lost grandma last Wednesday.

It has been a very difficult time for the family. My grandma was the sixth member of my family – she lived minutes from us for the past 26 years (yup, I’m 29, so practically my whole life). She was the best grandma, always coming to our sporting events, concerts, skating competitions (all across the US), spending birthdays and holidays together, she was always there cheering for us and supporting us. Even when I moved away to college and started my life on my own downstate, I would call my grandma every week to say hi. She will be missed.

I have lost so many loved ones in the past five months, my heart is so sad. I am working to heal and to move past the pain, but it is difficult to let go of so many loved ones.

Sorry for the Debbie downer post, but, this blog is my life and life is not always pretty or easy.




Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: